Archive for November 2008
Kulturler arasinda sikismak
Iki kultur arasinda, hatta kulturler arasinda kalip da bocaladiginiz, uzuldugunuz, korktugunuz gelecege dair, kizdiginiz, nefret ettiginiz hatta yasamaktan zevk alamadiginiz oldu mu hic… Herkesin hergun normaldir diye gordugu insanlari, ettigi sohbetleri, gittigi yerleri, yedigi yemekleri, soludugu havayi, hissettigi aciyi ozlediginiz; ozverilerle ve cabayla ancak arada sirada gerceklestirebildiginiz… Mutlulugunuzu paylasamayinca mutsuz oldugunuz, acinizi soyleyemeyince icinizde buyudugu, sesinizi duyuramayinca sessizlestiginiz… O yuzden belki de bu ihtiyac, yazma durtusu…
Gelelim kulturler arasi, hip deyimle dunya insani, olmaya. Temeliniz belli bir yerde belli bir sekilde atilmissa, belli insanlarla belli iletisimler icinde olmussaniz, besbelli siz oranin kulturunu alir ve kaniksarsiniz. Ha yeni gittiginiz yer de iyidir kotudur, belli seyleri sever ya da sevmezsiniz, ancak kalbiniz ornegin Istanbul`da ya da ne bileyim Gine`de kalir. Geride birakilan zorluklar dahi size gecmisinizden, insanlarinizdan, huzunlerinizden birseyler hatirlatir, kim oldugunuzu soyler durur. Zaten hic oyle baska biri olma sevdasinda da degilseniz, kendiniz bile olamamak bunaltir bazen, lafin ozu, nedir ki bizi biz yapan; anilar(cocukluk ve yetisme caglari), insanlar ve mekanlar degilse…
Add comment November 19, 2008
staying close to natural…
What makes me real sad sometimes is the tendency to get away from natural way of doing things. Natural way of eating, giving birth, growing and rasing, feeding… I just can not grasp people’s mentality to get away from these practices in the name of saving time, money, reputation, avoiding the very pain that is needed for creatures to feel alive…How could you still feel human when you just don’t act like one anymore… Or feeling that way is no longer needed for many of us and “the more“ is the drive and purpose in our lives. I don’t know, all I know I feel sad when I see a baby that is formula-fed for no reason, a tomato that doesn`t smell like one, a child who plays with some play-station all day long, a woman who is making pre-arrangements for a c-section just because she is “afraid“ of birth, a person who is looking for a new design for their nose since it looks so eighties, the list can go for pages… perhaps I am more focused on beginning stages of life now since the situation I am in requires me to do so. I am not judging, just wondering why can`t we be a little more concerned for nature and our responsibility not to resist it since once I said, rejecting it only brings unhappiness.
Add comment November 19, 2008
nice to be back…
Back to a goal, an old place, a feeling… Life has been very tiring with all sorts of businesses. We have goals and realizing them, I find, is always challenging. When you are out of your natural habitat, with one or two hands, you can only do so much; as much as we think we are superior to animals, we are no different from them in many ways. We need to be close to our own kind, get support, feel united… When the support is not there we feel missing, incomplete, unsatisfied…Oh well, as I said, nice to be back to something that I used to do, know, have a passion about, that is writing…
Add comment November 18, 2008
